my hearts heavy

so i was just reading my friends blog
and i super miss my best friend
41 months and going
<3 forever and ever

but you seriously don't know what you've gone until its gone.
im sorry for the times i neglected you.
sorry for not being able to do anything.
but if i had the ability i'd give the world to change back time.

carnival day!

so yah carnival day passed, and it was okay -
i got dunked twice
on both days
and then after the second day my ear sorta got infected but im better now
YAH.
im about to get some sushi just wanted to update this
so bye bye

just the way you aree

so yah i haven't been updating in a while
i've been volunteering you know
lol
and i know i look like a loner at seward
when im not with you guys
but its not that i don't wanna go back there
its just im going to leave soon anyways
but yeah i will hang out with you guys more often
unless you guys dont want me to..
but yah
i paint when i volunteer and its fun
and the kids are so funny
yerps

TRC 89 and millennium

SO TODAY WAS AWESOME AT THE TRC TOURNY
it was pretty fun keeping score and i think i did a pretty good job even though i sort of sucked and needed john lui to help me
there were a lot of people at the tournament like seniors from millennium and is89 graduates who are older
it was awesome seeing them because i havent seen them in soo long
yah prettty coool ay

so then i kept score and played handball too
then went to watch amy's volleyball game afterwards i went to meet up with the millennium people again woooohs awesomeness

so i went to pathmark with bonnie christina wilson kevin and david thanks wilson lol next time you're not buying it, we'll all take turns :)

and then we went to christinas home to eat it then later left it was pretty cool cause they're cool people yahh

bye bye <3

pinatas

so for the past 2 days i spent my time making pinatas.
so i really like it; because i feel good in ISS i feel like.. i belong there and everything feels sorts of familiar, i dont really seem like an outsider there - where as sometimes im out and i just feel out of place, so im just going to step aside and let you guys take your perfect pictures while i take mine somewhere else.

sweat and more sweat

so yah havent updated in a while everythings been fine, i started to volunteer again recently but what sucks is im volunteering when everyone else is going ice skating lol but its fine since i suck at ice skating anyways it hurts my feet but i hope you guys have a lot a lot of fun <3


so its like 9 in the morning on a thursday and im awake i've been awake since like 6 something because i went jogging <3 but since i have no stamina and i suck i was out of breath and sweating my balls off jogging for 3 minutes so i jogged walked and jogged the walk but i made it. so the genius me decided to wear a pullover when i was jogging boy was it fucking hot. i was dying in the heat ;[ but yeah like i said i made it through oh baby so im gonna shower sleep the volunteer in a few hours so make pinatas ! :)

so you may ask why i went jogging?
well obviously i need to watch my weight; its really becoming a problem for me - im going to be completely honest - i hate it when my thighs (?) rub together because it's really uncomfortable and gives me rashes and it sucks, not only does it suck its definately a problem.


so yah watching my weight and my attitude still trying to tone it down, i think i need some time, some time for myself to realize things so i can be commited to changing my attitude


and my mom <3 i was watching her eat oatmeal and i suddenly felt so sad that she eats by herself every morning then goes off to work and me as a daughter all i do i get her mad, i feel so bad i promise to myself that i'll pay her back - i'll treat my mom nicer i promise promise

goodbye social butterfly

i'm really bored at home.
everyone went to the beach today and i didn't go.
not that i didn't want to, i definately did but i just couldn't seem to wake up and today is the last day that my aunt from las vegas and her children are staying here in nyc so i thought i should spend some quality time with them but it turns out they all went out by the time i woke up lol boo

but uhh now where to do? i've been doing nothing for the past few days i didn't really feel like going out to watch the fireworks idkays what to do anymore im slowly becoming unsocial so i guess in a bit i'll be heading out to who knows where? lol

byebye